Sweet Surrender..

Mengapa Yahudi Bijak? (Translated from Dr. Stephen Carr Leon)

Setelah berada 3 tahun di Israel kerana menjalani housemanship dibeberapa hospital disana, ada beberapa perkara yang menarik dapat saya perhatikan untuk dijadikan tesis, iaitu “Mengapa Yahudi Bijak?”. Memang tidak dapat dinafikan ramai cendikiawan berbangsa Yahudi, dari segala bidang, Engineering, musik, saintis dan yang paling hebat ialah bidang perniagaan, dimana ia memang paling tersohor. Hampir 70% perniagaan di dunia dikuasai oleh kaum Yahudi, dari kosmetik, pakaian, pemakanan, senjata, perhotelan, perfileman diHollywood dan sebagainya.

Ketika tahun kedua, akhir bulan December 1980 dan sedang saya menghitung hari untuk pulang ke California saya terfikir apakah sebab nya kaum Yahudi begitu pintar? Kenapa tuhan memberi kelebihan kepada mereka? Apakah ini suatu kebetulan? Atau olah manusia sendiri? Adakah bijak boleh dijana? Seperti kilang pengeluaran?

Maka saya pon tergerak membuat tesis untuk Phd saya, disamping kebaikan untuk umat sejagat dan dapat hidup secara harmoni. Untuk pengetahuan anda tesis yang saya lakukan ini mengambil masa hampir lapan tahun, ini kerana untuk mengumpulkan data-data yang setepat mungkin.

Antara data-data yang saya kumpulkan ialah pemakanan, adat resam, ugama, persiapan awal untuk melahirkan zuriat dan sebagainya dan data data tadi saya cuba bandingkan dengan bangsa dan kaum kaum lain.

Marilah kita mulakan dengan persiapan awal melahirkan zuriat. Di Israel, setelah mengetahui yang sang ibu sedang mengandung, pertama kali saya perhatikan ialah, sang ibu akan sering menyanyi dan bermain piano dan si ibu dan bapa akan membeli buku metamatik dan menyelesaikan masalah metamatik bersama suami, saya sungguh hairan kerana teman saya yang mengandung sering membawa buku metamatik dan bertanya kepada saya beberapa soalan yang beliau tak dapat menyelesaikanya, oleh kerana saya memang minat tentang metamatik, tentu saja dengan senang saya bantu beliau. Saya bertanya kepada beliau, adakah ini untuk anak kamu? Beliau menjawab, “ia, ini untuk anak saya yang masih didalam kandungan, saya sedang melatih otak beliau, semuga ia menjadi genius apabila dewasa kelak” Perkara ini membuat saya tertarik untuk mengikut perkembangan beliau seterusnya. Berbalik kepada metamatik tadi, tanpa merasa jenoh beliau membuat latihan metamatik sehingga beliau melahirkan anak.

Seperkara lagi yang saya perhatikan ialah pemakanan beliau, sejak awal mengandung beliau gemar sekali memakan kacang badam dan korma bersama susu , dan untuk tengah hari makan utama beliau ialah roti dan ikan tanpa kepala bersama salad yang digaul dengan badam dan berbagai jenis kekacang, menurut beliau daging ikan sungguh baik untuk perkembangan otak dan kepala ikan mengandungi kimia yang tidak baik yang dapat merosakkan pengembangan dan penumbuhan otak anak didalam kandungan. menurut beliau ini adalah adat orang orang yahudi ketika mengandung dan ianya menjadi semacam kewajipan untuk ibu ibu yang sedang mengandung mengambil pil minyak ikan.

Ketika saya diundang untuk makan malam bersama orang orang Yahudi, perkara pertama yang saya perhatikan ialah menu mereka. Setiap undangan yg sama perhatikan ialah mereka gemar sekali memakan ikan (hanya isi atau fillet) dan biasanya daging tidak akan ada bersama dimeja jika ada ikan, menurut mereka, campuran daging dan ikan tak elok dimakan bersama. Salad dan kacang adalah suatu kemestian, terutama badam.

Seperkara yang pelik ialah mereka akan memakan buah buahan dahulu sebelum memakan hidangan utama. Jangan terperanjat jika anda diundang kerumah Yahudi anda akan dihidangkan buah buahan dahulu. Menurut mereka, dengan memakan hidangan kabohidrat (nasi atau roti) dahulu kemudian buah buahan, ini akan menyebabkan kita merasa ngantuk dan lemah dan payah untuk memahami pelajaran disekolah.

Di Israel, merokok adalah taboo, apabila anda diundang makan dirumah Yahudi, jangan sekali kali merokok, dan tanpa malu mereka akan menyuruh anda keluar dari rumah mereka dam merokok diluar rumah mereka. Menurut saintis di Universiti Israel, siasatan menunjukkan nikotin dapat merosakkan sel utama pada otak manusia dan akan melekat pada genes, ini bermakna keturunan perokok bakal membawa generasi yg cacat otak ( bodoh atau lembab). Suatu penemuan yg dahsyat ditemui oleh saintis yg mendalami bidang genes dan DNA. Para perokok harap ambil perhatian. (Ironi nya, pemilik pengeluar rokok terbesar adalah …… tekalah sendiri..!)

Perhatian saya selanjutnya ialah melawati tadika mereka, Pemakanan anak anak tadi cukup dikawal, makanan awal ialah buah buahan bersama kacang badam, diikuti dengan menelan pil minyak ikan (code oil lever) Didalam pengamatan saya, kanak Yahudi sungguh bijak dan rata rata mereka memahami 3 bahasa iaitu Hebrew, Arab dan Inggeris dan sedari awal lagi mereka telah dilatih bermain piano dan violin, ini adalah suatu kewajipan. Menurut mereka bermain musik dan memahami nota notanya dapat meningkatkan lagi IQ kanak kanak dan sudah tentu bakal menjadikan budak itu bijak.

Ini menurut saintis Yahudi, gegaran musik dapat stimulate (semacam senaman untuk otak) maka itu terdapat ramai sekali genius musik terdiri dari kaum Yahudi.

Seterusnya ke darjah 1 hingga 6, anak anak Yahudi akan diajar metamatik berkonsepkan perniagaan dan pelajaran sains amatlah diberi keutamaan. Di dalam perhatian peribadi saya, perbandingan dengan anak anak di California, ianya jauh berbeza tentang IQ dan boleh saya katakan 6 tahun kebelakang!!!. Segala pelajaran akan dengan mudah di tangkap oleh anak Yahudi. Selain dari pelajaran tadi sukan juga menjadi kewajipan bagi mereka dan sukan yg diberi keutamaan ialah memanah, menembak dan berlari, menurut teman saya ini, memanah dan menembak dapat melatih otak mem fokus sesuatu perkara disamping mempermudahkan persiapan untuk perhidmatan negara.

Selanjutnya pemerhatian saya menuju ke sekolah tinggi (menengah) disini murid murid ditekan dengan pelajaran mata sains dan mereka digalakkan mencipta produk, segala projek mereka walaupon kadangkala kelihatannya lucu dan mengarut, tetap diteliti dengan serius apatah lagi ianya berupa senjata, perubatan dan engineering, idea itu akan dibawa ke institute tinggi di Politeknik dan Universiti.

Satu lagi yg di beri keutamaan ialah fakulti perniagaan. Saya sungguh terperanjat melihat mereka begitu agresif dan seriusnya mereka tentang perniagaan. Diakhir tahun diuniversiti, para penuntut dibidang niaga dikehendaki melakukan projek dan memperaktik kanya dan anda hanya akan lulus jika kumpulan anda(10 pelajar setiap kumpulan) dapat keuntungan sebanyak $US1juta! Anda terperanjat? Itulah kenyataan, dengan rangkaian seluruh dunia dan ditaja sepenuhnya oleh syarikat milik Yahudi, maka tidak hairanlah mereka dapat menguasai ½ perniagaan didunia! Siapakah yg mencipta design Levis yg terkini? Ianya dicipta di Universiti Israel oleh fakulti bisnes dan fesyen.

Pernahkah anda melihat cara orang Yahudi melakukan ibadah mereka? Salah satu caranya ialah dengan menggoyangkan kepala mereka, menurut mereka ini dapat mengaktifkan otak mereka dan menambahkan oksijan dikepala, banyak ugama lain di Timur Tengah, seperti Islam juga ada menyuruh umatnya menunduk atau menggoyangkan kepala, ini guna dapat mensimulasikan otak kita supaya bertambah aktif. Lihat orang orang Jepun, mereka sering menunduk nundukkan kepala dan ianya sebagai adat. Ramai orang orang Jepun yg pandai? Adakah ianya sebagai kebetulan? Kegemaran mereka ialah sushi (ikan mentah). Adakah ini kebetulan? Fikirkanlah!

Berpusat di New York, Dewan perniagaan Yahudi bersedia membantu mereka yg berminat untuk melakukan bisnes (sudah tentu untuk Yahudi sahaja) jika mereka ada idea yg bernas, jawatan kuasa akan memberi pinjaman tanpa faedah dan pentadbir dari jawatan kuasa tadi akan bekerjasama dengan anda untuk memastikan yg perniagaan mereka menurut landasan yg betul. Maka itu lahirlah Starbuck, Dell comptr, Cocacola, DKNY, Oracle, Perfileman di Hollywood, Levis, Dunkin Donut dan ada beratus kedai ternama dibawah naungan dewan perniagaan Yahudi di New York. Graduan Yahudi dari fakulti perubatan New York akan disarankan untuk mendaftar dipersatuan ini dan digalakkan memulakan klinik mereka sendiri dengan bantuan wang tanpa faedah, barulah saya tahu mengapa hospital di New York dan California sentiasa kekurangan doktor pakar.

Kesimpulanya, pada teori saya, melahirkan anak dan keturunan yg bijak boleh dilaksanakan dan tentunya bukan semalaman, ianya memerlukan masa, beberapa jenerasi mungkin? Persiapan awal adalah ketika sang ibu mengandung, galakkanlah siibu melakukan latihan metamatik yg mudah tetapi konsisten disamping mendengar musik klasik. Seterusnya ubahlah cara pemakanan, makanlah makanan yg elok dan berhasiat yg baik untuk otak, menghayati musik sejak kecil adalah baik sekali untuk penumbuhan otak kanak kanak, dengan bermain piano dan violin sudah tentu dapat melatih anak anak mencerdaskan otak mereka demikian juga sukan yg memerlukan konsetrasi yg tinggi, seperti memanah, bola keranjang, dart dan menembak.

Merokok menjanjikan jenerasi yg moron (goblok) dan sudah tentu genes bodoh akan mengikut ke jenerasi siperokok. Lawatan saya ke Singapore pada tahun 2005 amat memeranjatkan sekali, disini perokok seperti dianak tirikan dan begitu susah sekali untuk perokok dan anda tahu berapa harga sekotak rokok? US$ 7 !!! ini bersamaan perbelanjaan sehari untuk makan anda!! Saya puji sekali sikap pemerintah Singapore dan menkjubkan sekali!!! dan seperti Israel ianya begitu taboo dan cara pentadbiran dan segi pembelajaran mereka hampir serupa dengan Israel, maka itu saya lihat banyak institusi pelajaran mereka bertaraf dunia walaupon hakikat nya negeri Singapore hanyalah sebuah pulau sebesar Manhattan!!

Anda mungkin muskil, benarkah merokok dapat melahirkan jenerasi goblok, saya telah menemui beberapa bukti menyokong teori ini. Lihat saja Indonesia, jika anda ke Jakarta, dimana saja anda berada, dari restoran, teater, kebun bunga hingga kemusium hidung anda akan segera terbau asak rokok! Dan harga rokok? Cuma US$ .70cts !!! dan hasilnya? Dengan penduduknya berjumlah jutaan orang berapa banyak kah universiti terdapat disana? Hasil apakah yg dapat dibanggakan? Teknologi? Jauh sekali. Adakah mereka dapat berbahasa selain dari bahasa mereka sendiri? Mengapa mereka begitu sukar sekali menguasai bahasa Inggeris? Ditangga berapakah kedudukan mereka di pertandingan metamatik sedunia? Adakah ini bukan akibat merokok? Anda fikirlah sendiri.

Di tesis saya ini, saya tidak akan menimbulkan soal ugama atau bangsa, adakah Yahudi itu zalim sehingga diusir dari semenjak zaman Paraoh hingga ke Hitler, bagi saya itu isu politik dan survival, yg ingin saya ketengahkan ialah, mampu kah kita dapat melahirkan jenerasi yg bijak seperti Yahudi? Jawabanya ialah mungkin dan tidak mustahil dan ianya memerlukan perubahan, dari segi pemakanan dan cara mendididik anak dan saya kira hanya memerlukan 3 jenerasi sahaja. Ini dapat saya lihat sendiri tentang cucu saya, ini setelah saya mengajar anak saya melalui program yg telah saya nyatakan diatas tadi, pada umur 9 tahun (cucu saya) dia dapat menulis esay sepanjang 5 mukasurat penuh. Esay nya hanyalah mengenai Mengapa saya gemarkan tomato!

Selamat sejahtera dan semuga kita dapat melahirkan manusia yg bijak dan bersifat mulia untuk kebaikan manusia sejagat tanpa mengenal batasan bangsa.

Dr. Stephen Carr Leon

P/S Just would like to share this inspiring & revealing article..

Extracts of speech by Hafez A.B Mohamed: Director-General, Al Baraka Bank.

Demographics:
o World Jewish Population. 14 million
o Distribution: 7 m in America
5 m in Asia
2 m in Europe
100 thousand in Africa
o World Muslim Population: 1.5 billion
o Distribution: 1 billion in Asia/Mid-East
400 M in Africa
44 M in Europe
6 M in the Americas
o Every fifth human being is a Muslim.
o For every single Hindu there are two Muslims
o For every Buddhist there are two Muslims
o For every Jew there are 107 Muslims
o Yet the 14 million Jews are more powerful than the entire 1.5 billion Muslims

Why?

Here are some of the reasons.

Movers of Current History
o Albert Einstein Jewish
o Sigmund Freud Jewish
o Karl Marx Jewish
o Paul Samuelson Jewish
o Milton Friedman Jewish

Medical Milestones
o Vaccinating Needle: Benjamin Ruben Jewish
o Polio Vaccine Jonas Salk Jewish
o Leukaemia Drug Gertrude Elion Jewish
o Hepatitis B Baruch Blumberg Jewish
o Syphilis Drug Paul Ehrlich Jewish
o Neuro muscular Elie Metchnikoff Jewish
o Endocrinology Andrew Schally Jewish
o Cognitive therapy. Aaron Beck Jewish
o Contraceptive Pill Gregory Pincus Jewish
o Understanding of Human Eye. G. Wald Jewish
o Embryology. Stanley Cohen Jewish
o Kidney Dialysis Willem Kloffcame Jewish

Nobel Prize Winners
o In the past 105 years, 14 million Jews have won 180 Nobel prizes whilst 1.5 billion Muslims have contributed only 3 Nobel winners

Inventions that changed History
o Micro- Processing Chip. Stanley Mezor Jewish
o Nuclear Chain Reactor Leo Sziland Jewish
o Optical Fibre Cable Peter Schultz Jewish
o Traffic Lights Charles Adler Jewish
o Stainless Steel Benno Strauss Jewish
o Sound Movies Isador Kisee Jewish
o Telephone Microphone Emile Berliner Jewish
o Video Tape Recorder Charles Ginsburg Jewish

Influential Global Business
o Polo Ralph Lauren Jewish
o Coca Cola Jewish
o Levi’s Jeans Levi Strauss Jewish
o Sawbuck’s Howard Schultz Jewish
o Google Sergey Brin Jewish
o Dell Computers Michael Dell Jewish
o Oracle Larry Ellison Jewish
o DKNY Donna Karan Jewish
o Baskin & Robbins Irv Robbins Jewish
o Dunkin Donuts Bill Rosenberg Jewish

Influential Intellectuals/Politicians
o Henry Kissinger , US Sec of State Jewish
o Richard Levin, PresidentYaleUniversity Jewish
o Alan Greenspan , US Federal Reserve Jewish
o Joseph Lieberman Jewish
o Madeleine Albright , US Sec of State Jewish
o CasperWeinberger , US Sec of Defence Jewish
o Maxim Litvinov , USSR Foreign Minister Jewish
o DavidMarshal , Singapore Chief Minister Jewish
o Isaacs Isaacs, Gov-GenAustralia Jewish
o Benjamin Disraeli, British Statesman Jewish
o Yevgeny Primakov, Russian PM Jewish
o Barry Goldwater , US Politician Jewish
o Jorge Sampaio, President Portugal Jewish
o Herb Gray, Canadian Deputy - PM Jewish
o Pierre Mendes, French PM Jewish
o Michael Howard, British Home Sec. Jewish
o Bruno Kriesky, Austrian Chancellor Jewish
o Robert Rubin , US Sec of Treasury Jewish

Global Media Influential
o Wolf Blitzer, CNN Jewish
o Barbara Walters ABC News Jewish
o EugeneMeyer , Washington Post Jewish
o Henry Grunwald, Time Magazine Jewish
o Katherine Graham , Washington Post Jewish
o Joseph Lelyeld, New York Times Jewish
o Max Frankel, New York Times Jewish

Global Philanthropists
o George Soros Jewish
o Walter Annenberg Jewish

Why are they powerful? why are Muslims powerless?

Here’s another reason. We have lost the capacity to produce knowledge.

o In the entire Muslim World (57 Muslim Countries) there are only 500 universities.
o In USA alone, 5,758 universities
o In India alone, 8,407 universities
o Not one university in the entire Islamic World features in the Top 500 Ranking Universities of the World
o Literacy in the Christian World 90%
o Literacy in the Muslim World 40%
o 15 Christian majority-countries, literacy rate 100%
o Muslim majority - countries , None
o 98% in Christian countries completed primary
o Only 50% in Muslim countries completed primary.
o 40% in Christian countries attended university
o In Muslim countries a dismal 2% attended.
o Muslim majority countries have 230 scientists per one million Muslims
o The USA has 5000 per million
o The Christian world 1000 technicians per million.
o Entire Arab World only 50 technicians per million.
o Muslim World spends on research/development 0.2% of GDP
o Christian World spends 5 % of GDP

Conclusion.
o The Muslim World lacks the capacity to produce knowledge.

Another way of testing the degree of knowledge is the degree of diffusing knowledge.

o Pakistan 23 daily newspapers per 1000 citizens
o Singapore 460 per 1000 citizens.
o In UK book titles per million is 2000
o In Egypt book titles per million is only 17

Conclusion.
o Muslim World is failing to diffuse knowledge

Applying Knowledge is another such test.
o Exports of high tech products from Pakistan is 0.9% of its exports.
o In Saudi Arabia is 0.2%
o Kuwait , Morocco and Algeria 0.3%
o Singapore alone is 68%

Conclusion.
o Muslim World is failing to apply knowledge.

What do you conclude? no need to tell the figures are speaking themselves very loudly we are unable to listen

Advice:

Please educate yourself and your children. always promote education, don’t compromise on it, don’t ignore your children’s slightest misguidance from education (and please, for God’s Sake, don’t use your personal contacts or sources to promote your children in their education; if they fail, let them and make them learn to pass; b/c if they can’t do it now, they can’t ever).
We are World’s biggest and strongest nation, all we need is to identify and explore our ownselves. Our victory is with our knowledge, our creativity, our literacy…And nothing else.

….Wake up…

Well..i’ve finally completed my housemanship..1st August 2006 till 10th August 2008.All the 5 postings: O&G, ortho, paeds, medical & surgical. Plus 4 months of maternity leave, the reason why i finished later than my batches.
2 longest years in my life..

Looking back, i think that there’s a lot to learn from the stress, the ‘torture’, the sacrifice and the non-stop working hours + oncalls. Maybe i can only say so because i’ve finished but i do believed i’ve mature and learn so many things, both personally & workwise. It was a good thing, finally..

I cringed when i read the letter in The Star from one reader ‘Concerned citizen’ - Government Doctors, Stop Whining!’.. Definitely the reader didnt have any daughter/son/siblings ever worked as a houseman. No houseman in their sane mind would happily do 10-15 oncalls per month. That would be a suicide!In fact, we fight over who get the least oncalls, no matter how much extra money you get..

I guess many people didnt actually know how actually we do oncalls. There are basically active or passive calls. For houseman, we usually have to do active calls, in which we have to be in available for 24 hours, eat, sleep & shower (if we ever have the time) in the ward. WE are the first liners: they see all the new cases, review the in-patients, take bloods, setting IV line, attend emergency situation, assisting M.O’s and in surgical-based posting, we also have to go in to assist operations.

We usually go to work not later than 7 am because we have to finish rounds before our M.O arrive. In some postings, as early as 6.30 because we have to take blood first. Then, if we are oncall, we stay until 7 am the next day. And NO, we dont go back after the long sleepless night. We continue working until 5 pm, only after we finish our work for the day. If the posting have 3 times-daily-rounds (TDS), we have to stay until the night round finish. This means, a houseman oncall would definitely work for more than 34 hours straight, if we go back at 5. And iIf we go back at 10 after pm round(as i did in surgical dept, TDS rounds), we would’ve work for 37 hours..

So, please tell me, who in their correct minds would want to do that 10-15 times per month? And, who would not whine if the pay are merely RM100 per oncall? (Yes, first year houseman only get RM100 for all those sleepless night). Just imagine if you have around 5-10 admission per night (btw, my record would be 14 admission from 5pm to 7 am in medical, and i was 38 months pregnant!), plus the ward round and all the procedures…not to mention patient who came in the middle of the night after keeping the problem the whole day, and some were too sleepy by the time we want to clerk them..

As for myself, i didnt even have the time to send my own father for clinic check up/ take leave when he was admitted during my housemanship. I stay in the same house with my parents, but i barely have the time to talk to them as i would be damn tired after oncalls and only think of sleeping or they have already go to bed when i come home.

So, for those doctor-wannabe..please face the reality & get some idea about the profession. And please know that houseman life in Malaysia is absolutely NOT like those you see in Gray’s Anatomy or Scrubs or ER. But feel free to dream of Dr McDreamy/ McSteamy as you like..:)

(Something i got from a friend…)

A strong woman works out everyday to keep her body in shape..
but a woman of strength kneels in prayer everyday to keep her soul in shape..

A strong woman isnt afraid of anything..
but a woman of strength shows courage in midst of her fear..

A strong woman wont let anyone get the best of her..
but a woman of strength gives her best to everyone..

A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future..
a woman of strength realizes life’s mistake can also be God’s blessing and capitalizes in them..

A strong woman walks sure-footedly..
but a woman of strength knows God will catch her when she falls..

A strong woman wears the look of confidence on her face..
but a woman of strength wears grace..

A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey..
but a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong..

Well..
i guess i should have write something in here about my pregnany and the delivery experience, but probably it was all too surreal, too complex and deep for me to be put into words..so i guess i`ll probably talk about it later, when my baby is really in a deep sleep and wont need me to pat him on & off to feel secure..:)

em,
i think it was only natural for new mother to feel insecure and very conscious about their body and think of ways to get back to their pre-pregnacy state or less in my case (apart from thinking on how to continue breasfeeding with a cracked nipple, or how to help your baby to stop the irritating hiccup). Afterall, it had been through an amazing journey of stretching and balloning, and pushing and pain..i always imagine myself to have the feet of an elephant during my later period of pregnancy, especially after oncalls..and wish i put more stretch marks lotion..and eat more sensibly..

then i mostly spend my days now in front of the tv, with  my favourite magazines, and my favourite new ‘toy’.. and you know what they say about beauty magazine–>they always make you feel more ugly..
so my post today is about feeling great post natally..i dont think it  make u less a mother to think about yourself and spend a ‘me’ time  once in a while..

so, my new year resolution regarding my body & my health, which i think are reasonable and practical small but useful steps, considering my time, my money and my baby..

1) To drink more water. D
2) Eat more protein, less carb..and start my meal with protein first so i get full
    earlier and hopefully eat less..
3) More dark chocolates and less ice cream..
4) Do more weight training and stretching (which is more doable in front of the tv, 
    without going out to the gym..)
5) Drink less soft drink, more gree tea..
   
Em, probably will add more to the list..
Oh, by the way, from what i’ve read, baby is actually not disturbed by hiccup, and its harmless..he’s probably wondering why other people is not having hiccup..:)
so dont try any maneuvre to stop the hiccup ok..
ta..!

andai kau menjadi pelangi, biarku jadi awannya
agar kita selalu bersama

andai esok aku menjadi tanah, sudikah engkau menjadi bunga
hiasi dadaku

I just hate my life this few weeks..i hate paediatrics. i hate bosses who act like they are the best doctors in the world, the people savior, the know-it-all and make life miserable for others..
I hate my job. I hate that i have to do oncalls, stay in the ward for more than 24hrs ( in fact sometimes its 48+10hrs if its a stretch call!), didnt have weekend break, didnt have a life!
I hate it that i hate my job & my life. I hate that i dont have time to spend for my own self, for my husband and my family. I hate the person i am now…
I hate to hate myself…

Em, finally got my oncall claim today..my life saver..
Bila dah kerja and malu nak mintak duit mak abah, every cent counts.
The problem now is, i just couldnt say no to BIG SALE and i really believe in retail therapy to bring smile back to my face any day…shopaholic eh?

But i never knew things could be as bad as last week…

It started end of January actually..27th January was my birthday, so i spoilt myself a bit..bought a new handbag, few new clothes, few movies and fine dinner with my hubby dearie..

Then for all gov servant, February’s payday was on the 12th. And there was CNY sale. So, spoilt myself some more..hehe

It was followed by my hubby’s birthday. Bought him some birthday presents and spend nice time together..so, money out again..

Lepas tu, Kus will be going back to Bintulu mid of March for work. Im not suppose to folllow, but it will be very nice to be back to Bintulu jumpa mak mertua & all. So, degil as always, i pun beli tiket MAS, which was actually more than double the price AirAsia would offer so that we’ll be on the same flight. A big minus again in my bank account..

Then, the day came when my dad’s old Mercs which i drive now broke down. Tak bule start. So,pay for new battery. But that was the beginning…it actually broke down again! Alternator rupanya yg rosak. So, tukar alternator, and tukar bateri lagi sbb yg baru tu ruined by the malfunctioned alternator…cost me 1k+ on that car alone..

Now, u wonder why i didnt ask money from my husband…
Em, sbb dia lagi malang. He actually draw money from the atm (1k+ to pay for house rent and bills) but the money didnt come out. Happened to me and u before right? But unfortunately the bank already deducted that amount from the account and it will take them 2 weeks to refund it.

Then things actually get worse when he draw another 1k+, but the money was stolen when he was in the gym! (California Fitness goers beware for silent thief around you!) Ada 2,3 orang lagi yg kena curik jugak masa tu..

Mmg rasa malang giler..

So, i hope u understand why the oncall claim today is my life saver…

Was it bad luck, a test, or a lesson?
Anyway, i still believe that money is not everything..but my husband didnt agree with that..he said if money is not everything, why everything needs money??.

I couldnt answer that, but i know i didnt marry him for his money..hehe..

The best lessons here:
1. Never carry big amount of cash in your wallet
2. If you had problem with your car battery, also check the alternator
3. U might get your oncall claim a bit late, so dont overspend…
4. Finally, just pray hard that thing like these didnt happen so often, and if it does happen, pray harder that it didnt get worse…

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