Sweet Surrender..

My first entry..

Im not actually sure if this is a good idea; to pour my thought out on the net. I did write sometimes in my diary but thats different because a diary is a diary. Its like my own ’secret garden’..for my eyes only..

But something happened last night and i think im in the mood to write at the moment..

Well, what happened was basically a clash of ideas and needs on the intricately complicated matter of getting married; you know the adat, timing,transportation and lodging (sbb my boyfriend org srwk), and the most important of all- MONEY.

Not that i’ll be getting married anytime soon, but the plan is there. My parents apparently couldnt resist the urge to ask me to get married as soon as possible, seeing that many of their friends are getting excited over menantu and cucu. Well, personally for me, dahla nak dapat boyfriend and really fall in love susah..nak kawin lagi susah rupanya..hehe..

Not that i didnt expect this. I knew it from the moment i decide that i love this man and i dont wanna let him go. But I believe that there are things in life that worth fighting for and love is one of it. And i believe in love..hehe..you can laugh..im a sappy romantic by default. Just couldnt help it..

So now i guess, i should just keep my mind back on tract. Think positively..imagine that we finally get tru everything, the vibrant and colourful wedding day, the excitement of getting married with the preparation and all..hehe berangan..use the power of the subconcious to get where u want…:)

Other than that, nothing of adrenaline-rush event happened. Attachment at the IIUm Breast Centre for my elective posting is uneventful for these 2 days, except maybe for a Support Group meeting this evening. It will be nice to hear how these wonderful woman got through brest cancer and survive..

Here, I would like to called out to all woman (and also myself yg biasanya pandai ckp je),please do monthly breast examination. Yes, u might feel rather depressed and secretly wish your breast are bigger and perkier, but be thankful enough everyday that there’s no naughty malignant cells multiplying and wrecking havoc inside there..advise your mum (or any women above 35) to have a mamography screening ok..check out http://www.radiologymalaysia.org/breasthealth/SBE/sbe1.htm

Sometimes the world seems so daunting and scary. U might feel hopeless and wish u can just cuddle up in bed. But the world still goes on, with or without you..dont be left behind..

Wow..couldnt believe its so panjang..haha

~ by ciktembikai on April 11, 2005.