PMS
bad mood la arini…well,not really bad mood. more like ‘blues’. PMS. hehe..the great answer women made up to cover up for mood swing, irrational behaviour, binge eating and all the weird things we do..but in my case today its post menstrual syndrome kot..ada ke post menstrual syndrome? hehe had a disturbing dream mlm tadi. time blues2 ni mimpi pg jumpa kus la pulak, but then dia cam tak layan and seemed so eager to send me back home..hehe..dalam mimpi pun psycho.. actually i always try to self-diagnose myself with some psychiatric or psychological illness sbb kdg2 my emotion and ‘fear’ are so intense that its so hard to keep a positive thinking and feel normal. bila time2 camni i could be so overcome by irrational sense of jealousy and doubt, undefined loneliness, sadness and emptiness that i feel so suffocated. like i could cry at anytime. i try to look back to my childhood kalau ade something wrong there, but i couldnt point out any damaging event. Hehe, freudian theory la pulak. aquarian trait? not so sure about that, tapi aquarian is usually described as aloof and ‘unemotional’.. em, maybe low level of serotonin kot sbb balik umah ni mmg takde can la nak exercise. at least last week ada gak pg gym…guess this is the time when we need to be rescued by a big bar of chocolate..ehehehe…
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