Sweet Surrender..

the holiday is ruining my brain to atrophy. i dont read the text book (masa tak cutipun tak baca inikan pulak cuti..duh!), i havent write in my diary for weeks, barely update this blog, i overslept every single day (my record was sleep at 12 midnight and woke up at 1 the next day) and finished a big bar of chocolate in 1 day…

i tried to read harper lee’s award winning ‘to kill a mockingbird’ but so far im stuck at page 40. i have some problem to really ‘feel’ and imagine the story because of the yankie’s language and probably because it was first published in 1960s so u know it was so much different from what we have now.

so, i moved to another book- Please Understand Me:Character and Temperament Types by David Keirsey and Marilyn Bates. Basically all about the Jung-Myers concepts of different types of personality in people.I also have problem to finish this one because dont know what is my type. Im pretty sure im extrovert, but the rest of the pairs of preferences (intuitive vs sensing, feeling vs sensing and judging vs perceiving) are not very clear. i think im ENFJ, but this type of people put other people’s need before their own. i know im selfish. lagipun here’s only about 5% of ENFJ in this world. 5% of people who would sacrifice for others. i dont think im that good.

otherwise, its a very interesting read. helps to remind us that everybody had their own way of thinking and seeing things from a different angle. which suddenly reminds me of kak nur’s theory. she said that the voice that our own voice we heard is different from our voice that other people heard. i notice that when i had my dad’s digicam and started recording. i just hate my voice (i just realize that sometimes i really sounds mengada2!) and my big ‘ha-ha’ laugh.

anyway, the point is that while we wonder why some people behave the way they do, remember that other people wonder the same about us. dont be too quick to blame, to point fingers, to condemn. sometimes, we dont even know why we ourselves behaves the way we does..

quoted from the book:

If i do not want what you want, please try not to tell me that my want is wrong.

or if i believe other than you, at least pause before you correct my view.

or if my emotion is less than yours, or more, given the same circumstances, try not to ask me to feel more strongly or weakly.

Or yet if i act, or fail to act, in the manner of your design for action, let me be.

I do not, for the moment at least, ask you to understand me. That will come only when you are willing to give up changing me into a copy of you…

~ by ciktembikai on May 23, 2005.