Sweet Surrender..

well..jemput la tgk2 gambar kat fotopages..most of my pics tak muat nak upload kat friendster ni…
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Hi..

so, raya is over. well, at least for me..

maybe it was the worst raya for me,so far..

First, things didnt go very well with my parents which was very depressing (can i blame hormones on these??). Then, baju raya tak siap..and Isnin lepas raya dah start class..

Thank God Kus made it to my house with kek lapis from Srwk, and we drove back together with my 2 brothers safely..

Just when i thought finally things can go back to normal, i started to notice small vesicles appearing on my already unsightful abdomen..and later i found few more after a careful body search..and u know what? Its CHICKEN POX!!!! At this age, its just scary u know…

Being a medical student, i cant resist a boxfull prescription of Acyclovir, calamine lotion and Piriton (a must!)..skrg ni nak sikat rambut pun susah. But people say i should be thankful sbb it didnt effect my face much. Anyway, my face is already in shamefull state that people hardly notice 2 extra bumps at the corner of my mouth..

And a special note to my lovely fiancee (i know he wont be reading this, but i still want to let it be known), who was the most wonderful guy i ever met. Sayang, thanks so much for being there for me even when i look like a katak puru!! LOVE YOU!!

Em, tgh curi2 masa skit ni balik awal dr wad sbb skrg tak ramai patient. maklumlah bulan puasa. Sape la nak duduk wad nak raya2 ni.

Anyway, nothing much happen. kalau ada pun, it didnt last long la sbb i cant think of any. But im looking forward to raya. Walaupun tatau lagi ada baju raya ke tak, i cant wait for Kus to come on 2nd raya with kek lapis from Srwk. And most probably i`ll be going back to kl with him, but ‘unfortunately’ with my 2 bros as ascort at the back la. hehe. Sibuk je..

Cuti raya sekejap je, so maybe tak sempat pun nak jln2 rumah member. So, to u guys, have a blessed Raya. Jgn makan byk2 sgt. Drive carefully. Maaf zahir batin ok. Masa mungkin membatasi bicara kita, tapi di hati masih ada ingatan rasa cinta…

Hopefully taun dpt dah dpt gaji and bule bagi duit raya.

Well, apparently this blog have been in hibernation mode for quite some time..until one unspecified date…

truth to be told, i just dont have the time n passion to write (type)..energy & idea had been drained out by daily workload sejak masuk final year ni. balik bilik kunun nak nap kejap, tapi set alarm 3 kali pun tak dgr..

skrg im in 2nd week of o&g posting. one baby delivered, 4 more to go to fill up my log book. so i`ll just to keep on pushing la..

sedihnya tak dpt pg iium convo this weekend. to zizah, zaza, yune n others who will be there, at the peak of their career as a student, i hope the scroll will keep on inspiring them to look up for more bright opportunity n success in the ‘real’ working world..

and a special wish for yuzlinawati( she’s getting married!!!), semoga aku dpt gak aura2 kawin kau walaupun tak dpt dtg..semoga dpt anak yg cute2 n taat kat mak bapak..

btw, i guess i can say that im enggaged. maybe not officially (sbb there’s no actual enggagement ceremony) tapi masa merisik last weekend, both party decide that there will only be one more ceremony after that i.e the wedding sbb logistik problem. so, hopefully everything goes well and by the end of next year i can send out wedding cards. till then, berangan je la dulu..hehe..

bye…..

Finally its Friday…4 mgu ni mmg sakit kaki je berdiri..almaklumlah dah lama tak exercise berdiri masa ward round lama2..

And the worst thing today was tumit my hush puppies patah..damn! was it me or was it the shoes? berat sgt kot? hehe..tapi tak penah la pulak sblm ni kasut2 lain patah. Vincci yg tumit sebesar jari kelingking tu pun tak penah la lagi patah..well, i have to admit im not the person yg jalan sopan2 ala2 catwalk even when im on high heels..but still, i decided that it was the shoes..hush puppies or not, it sucks!tak pasal2 melayang 50 bucks beli kasut baru..emm..

mlm ni actually nk pg tgk abg tom cruise ( i hate to see him with katie holmes..tatau apsal..:~) tapi dah penuh..so maybe tomorrow..

okla..frust ni sbb tak dpt online yahoo msgr to catch my baby…huhu..

At this very moment, aku rasa bende paling best dlm dunia ialah tido. Or maybe better kalau ada org urut sampai aku tertidur. Hehe. Tapi berangan je la kot. Agaknya kalau guna the power of subconscious mind utk kinda ‘brain wash’ otak aku ni untuk erasa segala kepenatan berkesan tak?

Rasa satu badan, tangan, kaki, otak and agaknya suma visceral2 dalaman ni exhausted giler. Smlm aku kuar bilik kul 715, then duduk kat wad sampai 1.30. At 2 pm pulak ade common lecture sampai 430. Kul 530 pegi wad balik, tapi itupun doktor kata apsal lambat sampai..em..pastu dinner kejap 7-8…malam 1130 je aku cabut lari…lalu je kat bilik tb, tapi tak larat pun nak tgk Mawi n the gang..mandi2, aku gagahkan jgk turun pg tgk Lost. Hehe. Power of media. Pukul 2, letak je kepala kat bantal terus tido..

Mak dah tanya bila nak balik…durian dah banyak gugur kat rumah..ehhehe..sape2 yg teringin makan durian jemputla pg umah aku ek..

Harini rupanya satu lagi kematian tiba di depan mata. Pesakit disorong masuk dari wad ke Cardiac Care Unit after intubation, mata tertutup, lemah, tapi tu pemandangan biasa..blood pressure was good, heart rate normal..

Tapi tiba2 keadaan berubah, tak sampai 5 minit lepas patient berada kat CCU. Recussitation commenced..but after a while, staff nurse berbisik di telinga patient..  ‘pakcik, mengucap pakcik…ashaduanlailahaillallah..’..

Satu lagi jemputan tiba. Yg ditinggal hanya mampu mentiskan air mata, tapi pada yg pergi belum pasti apakah bentuk sambutan di alam sana nanti..

A nice one by Lucie Silvas. My fav at the moment time2 blues..hehe..

Just like i predicted, we’re at the point of no return,
we can’t go backwards and all corners have been turned,
i cant control it, if i sink or if i swim,
cause i chose the waters that i’m in..

if its not what you’re made of you’re not what i´m looking for,
you were willing but unable to give me anymore,
there´s no way you’re changing, some things will just never be mine,
you’re not in love this time..

Well..skrg dah masuk 2nd week of Internal Medicine posting. Nak kata busy tu tak sgt la, tapi ptg2 pg gak wad sbb member2 suma rajin, so takkan aku nak malas sengsorang kan..mlm ni pulak on call. Patutnya sampai kul 12 kena ada kat wad, tapi maybe aku akan balik awal sbb nak tgk diari AF. Hehe..Mesti Mawi kena marah..sian dia..skrg dah tak tgk Fuad dah sbb aku rasa he’s not being himself la..mcm pretend skit..anyway..

Last week sempat tgk Madagascar je. Bule la, but not hilariously funny. This week pulak cant wait to see Mr n Mrs Smith, simply because Angelina Jolie is so damn gorgeous..hehhee..cam lesbian pulak…

k la, bila dah duduk dpn pc ni tatau plak ape nak tulis..

oh ya, i change my phone number. will update u all later k..

Well, the day finally come..im officially a final year student. Briefing at 9.30 nanti..

1st posting will be Internal Medicine. Masa 3rd yr dulu pun start with I.M. My group members would be some of the people best known in the community as the rajin and pandai people..so, aku kena la mendapatkan aura2 diorang supaya tak ketinggalan..jgn kagum la kalau aku rajin lepas2 ni..ehhe..doktor2 pun ramai2 docs baru yg tatau lagi camne perangai..

so, please pray for me ok. hopefully everything goes on well and there will come a day when i can say that u can all call me Dr. D. Hehe. Yeah, one fine day..